Really, Just Really?

Anger is an emotion. I am a Sag and when I have moments of anger, it’s a flash and then I’m fine. Thankfully, I have several placements in Virgo, which keeps me between the lines. I allow the emotion of anger to be and then let it go.

Letting go takes a minute sometimes. I express through my throat chakra and then write to allow the residual anger to be released from and through my heart chakra.

I am a nearly seven-year breast cancer survivor. I have had many operations before and after chemotherapy and radiation. When faced with your own mortality, you come to an understanding in which you knew all along – everything is in Divine Order.

I just love how every once in a while, Spirit (God, Infinite Intelligence) brings something full circle to remind you that work is still needed. We are all a work in progress. Once we understand this, we can now become empathetic toward others.

Backstory: A couple of weeks ago a video was released and in that video, I mentioned that I was a breast cancer survivor and that I had seen my left breast blackened around seven years before the diagnosis. Someone made the comment that I manifested my illness.

I was angry, hurt, sobbed. I dialed one of my oldest and dearest friends at 6 a.m. She allowed me to vent. Who in their right mind would actually think that anyone would want to manifest such a disease, and all that took place after that. Unfreakinbelievable! In my next breath, I grew to understand that the person who wrote that could only perceive at level he lives at, in which I dropped to momentarily and thought he was a simple-minded dimwit for not reading between the edited lines in the video. I rebounded quickly because I have done the inner work and continue to do it.

Flash-forward a few days. I finally had a video appointment with my oncologist whom I’ve known since 2016. I was to have an evaluation done to see what my percentages were to continue life if I stopped taking the estrogen inhibitor that I’ve been swallowing daily for six years. Turns out I did not qualify for that evaluation, so we had the same discussion – seven years is as good as 10 years, so I count the days. I realized in that moment I was angry at the world. Can I just catch a break? Yes, I have had many. I am thankful and great ful.

For the record. I saw my left breast blackened, told my friend and decided all I could do was get a yearly mammogram. I forgot about the vision until I found the lump and was diagnosed.

Funny thing is this was truly not manifested. It was planned before I came to the earth plane to have this experience called life.
I will not discuss the comment made by that man again.

Peace and Love